Its been a long day

i'm not sure already what i'm gonna do with my future.it feels lyk i'm somewhere out there for a way out but i have not idea how to get back or even which way to head to if i was to not turn back and move forward.i thought i had a plan but now everything is all jumble up.too much time n tears are already wasted.i just wish i could sleep now but that's isn't an option either

say cheese :)

I'm up again in the middle of the night after many toss and turns because of the drilling sort of pains which starts from my gums connected to my head...double treat for me right..right...i have been to the dentist..i told the dentist i was having pains occasionally and my gums bleed when i brush even after changing my toothbrush and toothpaste.he just said no worries,its normal(ya right,try be me for one day)..gave some mouth wash and told me maybe i should change my brushing style.Owh ya he did do scaling for my teeth said some parts of my teeth wasn't clean(shit it hurt when he did that to my teeth)..maybe because the last time i had my teeth checked was during primary school when nurses used to come in this moving clinic sort of van to school every 6 months give the students free checkup.

Every time the nurses checked this green colour card that has my personal details in it,they go ''oh you are mr vijayan's daughter"..I know your dad. I been young that time thinking my dad was some famous person la..haha..actually he working in the government under the medical records department always needs him to go to the gh jb to do whatever he supposed to(i don't what he does there la,but something to do with the records bla bla,worried dad will give some long speech so too malas to ask what he did there :P

my point here is my teeth hurts badly and i don't wanna take panadols again to get to sleep..argh i hope i'm not having some incurable disease.i'm only 23..omg i'm old

are we ok?

They say distance makes the heart fonder,does it?...the further you are away from your partner all kinds of thoughts start literally jumping into your head..the what if's and what not's..even if you are next to each other this thoughts still gets to you..fights followed by drama are happening which later on the cause of the fight was not known by either the male or the female.is this fights part of getting to know each other better or does this show that both of them are not compatible for each other..

the games you play..or at least try to

“ Boys frustrate me. I hate all their indirect messages, I hate game playing. Do you like me or don’t you? Just tell me so I can get over you. Kirsten Dunst

---found this quote from this friend's profile of mine..i just had to put it here..hehehe

9th month week

Meeting him after a long long 3 weeks was the best thing ever.with a sigh,the week just pass by like a wink of an eye.now its back to waiting for another 3 weeks to past by.already missing your morning face,seeing you cook me meals.u have got me go crazy over sardines now:).we got to take pictures the next time we meet.gonna make you cam-whoring with me.cant wait for xmas to come too.busy downloading xmas movies so we cuddle up and watch them all night.

p.s:it's only been 2 days since last saw you,but missing you so much already..after this morning's dream i realised how much you meant to me..love you hunny bun..xoxoxo

B-DAY

i finally got the B-DAY present..now i wanna do something else for her...from sources, i learn we can do a leis(garland) or headpiece...since flowers are the first thing that pops out in my head when hear the party is hawaiian theme..so shall go plastic flower hunting tomorrow(hopefully)

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the result of my little project:...............

headpiece & lei a term used by the Hawaiian people for garland

Fat Girl

i'm slowly loosing it because of the many ridicules by many about my weight and appearance..what happen to just being nice and sweet and minding our business..i have tried the weight loosing and boy i lost a lot but then it done through pretty drastic measures...i would barely eat anything mostly survived on liquids.of cause the weight drop off just like that but after a while it came jumping back on me.i been told the weight of me is too much,i should loose some.saying its not that so i could be all pretty but its only more health thing..or is it..how do you all know how i feel every morning i see myself in the mirror..only i know..so stop with the comments..its seriously none of your business how i look or how much i weight.

well to make others whom care for me be ''happier'',i going to give it another try...hope it goes in the right way this time..its not i giving into people but i trying to give myself another chance to do something again which i have fail before doing before